Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Jeff Gets Engaged, Ends Badly - Amy's Rebute

As I said in my story, if Amy had something to say then I would post it completely unabridged. Well, she had a lot to say, so here it is:

[02:29:pm] [Peow] I understand that right now it must REALLY suck to be you, but I was nothing but fucking nice about the way things ended, trying to be as considerate as I possibly could aobut your feelings and the fact that I knew I was hurting them. Instead of being grateful and f

[02:29:pm] [Peow] and understanding that sometimes there's too much CRAP between two people to make it work, and unfortunately I am unable to FORCE myself into being in love with someone who spend half of our relationship selfish, and caring only for himself - you decide to act like a fifteen year old boy,

[02:29:pm] [Peow] and use whatever dirt you think you had on me, to tell everyone on your myspace list about how horrible of a fucking person I am. There's a lot of shit I could've made known about YOU but never chose to because I'm not a child. I really hope for whatever poor girl you end

[02:29:pm] [Peow] up with next, you grow the fuck up, man up, and learn how to act like an adult. I have never been so disappointed or felt so much pity for one person in my entire life. Good luck with the rest of your pathetic existence.

[07:32:pm] [SG] I was not doing it to show people how big of a bitch you are, I did it to get some shit out and let things and let the past be the past.

[08:10:pm] [Peow] Maybe you should've done it privately.
[08:10:pm] [Peow] that was fucking low and you know it.
[08:10:pm] [Peow] private conversations between you and I plastered for anyone on your friends list to see, there's no excuse for that.

[08:11:pm] [Peow] And I also think it's cute how John ran his mouth behind everyone's back and you're claiming I had it set in my mind from day one, because of that, that I was going to break up with you.

[08:11:pm] [Peow] np; Lil Wayne/Robin Thicke - Tie My Hands.
[08:11:pm] [Peow] Also not the case, nor was I using you, which is how you made shit out to be.

[08:12:pm] [Peow] You lost a fucking good friend and I severely hope you're pleased with yourself, because any love I had left for you any feelings whatsoever that'd make me give a shit about your life in general? Out the fucking window. So good luck.

[08:13:pm] [SG] A good friend? Ooookay and love for me? Right. Look, you obviously don't care for me at all, so why not just cut ties?

[08:13:pm] [Peow] And I really hope at some point you grow up, keep your mouth shut about me when I'm not around, and get a life. Because I don't sit around talking about you to everyone else or spend hours writing some half true blog that left out ALL the parts that made you sound bad.

[08:13:pm] [Peow] Oh, we are.
[08:13:pm] [SG] half true blog? it's all true
[08:13:pm] [SG] okay then, why are you still IM'ing me?

[08:14:pm] [Peow] Yet you left out all the shti you did to me? Telling me to run off and get raped again, telling me my dad doesnt love me, blah blah. Grabbing me by my hair and screaming in my face and then you REALLY sit there and wonder why I couldnt force myself to Love you?

Now that 1st part happened on IRC not too long after our 2nd nasty breakup, and she said some pretty cruel shit to me too. The hair pulling was a one time thing, never touched her again after that because I felt bad.

[08:14:pm] [Peow] Next time include everything.
[08:14:pm] [Peow] Thanks.
[08:14:pm] [SG] Okay I will add that.
[08:14:pm] [Peow] No, don't bother.
[08:15:pm] [Peow] My family's upset enough as it is.
[08:15:pm] [Peow] thanks.
[08:15:pm] [SG] Why's that?
[08:15:pm] [Peow] Because they didn't know about half the shit you wrote.
[08:15:pm] [Peow] You made my private business public to anyone who wanted to know.

[08:15:pm] [SG] I see.
[08:15:pm] [Peow] do you see me emailing your fucking mother telling her to masturbate in parking lots? Grow up.
[08:16:pm] [Peow] you.*
[08:16:pm] [Peow] Private information stays private for a reason.
[08:18:pm] [Peow] thanks for ALWAYS being there and making yourself a victim in a situation that you had just as much a part in as I did, hope you sleep well at night.
[08:18:pm] [Peow] And to answer your question from earlier - Because this is MY way of getting shit ou tand moving passed it. You tell everyone how much of a cunt I am, I'd rather be mature and go straight to the source rather than involving everyone else.

[08:20:pm] [SG] I am the source.
[08:20:pm] [SG] Why are you still PMing me?
[08:20:pm] [Peow] that's the point. Because you can ge tit out, so I can too.
[08:20:pm] [SG] okay shoot
[08:20:pm] [Peow] np; Lil Wayne - The Sky is the Limit.
[08:21:pm] [Peow] Pretty sure I just did. But before you run around fucking bitching about how I'm such a bad person maybe you should look in the mirror because you are the one who made me miserable for nearly two years and it was HIM who picked up the pieces after you destroyed what little was left after Jeremy.
[08:21:pm] [Peow] You're so caught up in the pain you feel never for a second thinking about what YOU did.

[08:22:pm] [SG] I never said you were a bad person.
[08:22:pm] [Peow] Maybe the reason you were left for someone better was because you took what could have been a good, healthy relationship and you fucked it over from the very start. Obviously It was MY fault for ever giving you a second chance but regardless, you never deserved that.
[08:23:pm] [Peow] No, you just wrote everything from a victim's perspective so that all of your friends feel sorry for you and think I'm some miserable cunt.
[08:23:pm] [SG] Oh so this is my fault now when before it wasn't. Okay I see.
[08:23:pm] [Peow] I was trying to be a good, nice person and not add salt to the wound. I was trying to be nice about shit, and left the lines of communication open so that you knew I'd be here if you needed me.

[08:23:pm] [SG] No Amy, I pasted everything word for word 100%
[08:23:pm] [Peow] You wrote your own version of the beginning.
[08:24:pm] [Peow] "we didnt work out because of shit I wont go into because it's not relevant to the story."
[08:24:pm] [Peow] the fuck it's not, Jeff.
[08:24:pm] [Peow] You were a dick to me the entire time we lived together.
[08:24:pm] [Peow] pretty fucking relevant.
[08:24:pm] [SG] yea how is jen and jeremey relavent?

[08:24:pm] [SG] But was I a dick the last few times we were together? No.
[08:24:pm] [Peow] No, you left out the entire beginning of our relationship.
[08:25:pm] [Peow] the very reason we never had a chance.
[08:25:pm] [SG] And that was because of shelby, jen, jeremy and we moved too soon
[08:25:pm] [Peow] Oh, so because you were so much better the, what, month we were together, that erases 18 months?
[08:25:pm] [Peow] Sure, blame other people for your lack of self control.
[08:25:pm] [SG] The past is the past, you claimed to of moved on.
[08:26:pm] [Peow] Thought I had. You claimed to have grown up and become a better person - we see how well that turned out.
[08:26:pm] [SG] I have become a better person.
[08:26:pm] [Peow] np; Lil Wayne - Kobe Bryant.
[08:26:pm] [SG] And this convo is done, good day
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* Added Peow!*@* to ignore list
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Okay for some reason the ignore didn't work because she was still able to IM/PM me.


[08:26:pm] [Peow] If you had, you'd have handled things better. Not shown the world our private conversations.
[08:26:pm] [Peow] karma's a bitch, enjoy.
[08:26:pm] [SG] You'd of handled shit better too, you attack me, shit look at yourself.
[08:27:pm] [Peow] I attack you?
[08:27:pm] [Peow] You're jealous because I'm happy with someone and you couldn't do that, and you spread my business to everyone who can read your myspace - and I come to YOU to confront you, and I'm a bad person?

[08:27:pm] [Peow] learn to handle shit like an adult, with the source.
[08:27:pm] [Peow] You're 30, act like it.
[08:27:pm] [SG] I'm not jealous.
[08:27:pm] [Peow] Of course not.
[08:27:pm] [SG] I'm not.
[08:27:pm] [Peow> Whatever you say.
[08:27:pm] [SG] Never was.
[08:28:pm] [Peow] If you weren't, you'd have faced Tj yourself rather than talking shit in ablog he can't read and ignored him.

[08:29:pm] [SG] Like I said, I wrote it get shit out and let go of the past. I did not do it out hate, jealously, etc.
[08:29:pm] [SG] Why are you still PMing me?
[08:29:pm] [Peow] Because I can. If you don't like it, ignore me too.
[08:29:pm] [Peow] Learn to keep my name off your fingertips and stop running around like some child talking shit.
[08:29:pm] [Peow] Never once have I spoken badly about you since the break up. It's pretty sad.
[08:29:pm] [SG] Your name? Where in that did I use your name?
[08:30:pm] [Peow] yet you sit with emily and John talking shit about me.
[08:30:pm] [SG] Uhm you told him shit about me, dont say you didnt
[08:30:pm] [Peow] pretty sad even now you can't keep yourself from speaking aobut me.
[08:30:pm] [SG] I don't talk shit about you, I haven't spoken about you

[08:30:pm] [Peow] I told him things about you because he's my boyfriend.
[08:30:pm] [Peow] Same as I told you about jeremy.
[08:30:pm] [Peow] couples share that stuff.
[08:30:pm] [Peow] Your blog shows different.
[08:30:pm] [SG] Well please dont.
[08:30:pm] [Peow] LOL 3 MONTHS, HE'LL HAVE TO PAY FOR IT.
[08:31:pm] [Peow] After those two blogs you have the audacity to ask me not to share things about my past relationship with my boyfriend? that's a laugh.
[08:31:pm] [SG] What do you want from me?
[08:31:pm] [Peow] I want you to fucking apologize, but it's not a requirement.
[08:32:pm] [Peow] np; Erin/Lyfe Jennings - Hypothetically.

[08:32:pm] [Peow] I want you to get it through your head that I didn't leave you for Tj. I want you to stop talking about me and my relationship. I want you to admit that you were never in love with me. Because if someone loves someone else, truly, compeltely - they're happy for that person, regardless of whether or not the person's happiness involves them. And I want you to understand that I was as polite and
[08:32:pm] [Peow] understanding as I could have been and you, rather than being grateful for that, shoved it all down my throat.
[08:32:pm] [Peow] Like you did through most of our fucking relationship.
[08:32:pm] [SG] Okay wait, 1 at a time here.
[08:32:pm] [Peow] And I really, really want you to learn from this so that you don't fuck up your next girlfriend's head the way you did Mmine.
[08:32:pm] [SG] How did you not leave me for him?
[08:33:pm] [Peow] I broke up with you because I wasn't happy with you. Period.
[08:33:pm] [SG] WOW

[08:33:pm] [Peow] He came along at a bad time and you can ask him that yourself.
[08:33:pm] [Peow] I told him repeatedly, that very thing.
[08:33:pm] [SG] okay I fucked your head up? wow okay , you're obviously turning your shit around on me just like you always do
[08:33:pm] [Peow] No.
[08:34:pm] [Peow] I did a lot of shit to you, too.
[08:34:pm] [Peow] I admit that.
[08:34:pm] [SG] okay

[08:34:pm] [Peow] I take responsibility for all of that.
[08:34:pm] [SG] now we are getting somewhere
[08:34:pm] [Peow] But you're making me out to be some whore/cunt who never gave a shit about your feelings.
[08:34:pm] [Peow] AQnd that's bullshit.
[08:34:pm] [SG] logs dont lie
[08:34:pm] [Peow] Why do you think Tj is so angry? he's tired of watching me feel guilty, or cry because of the shit you've said.
[08:35:pm] [Peow] I left everything behind, includingmy education, to start something with you.
[08:35:pm] [Peow] You left out my fucking sacrafices and played the victim.
[08:35:pm] [Peow] That was fucking shady.
[08:35:pm] [SG] Okay, well like I said if you have anything to add I will post it complete unedited.

[08:36:pm] [Peow] No, I want you to stop talking about me. Stop writing about me. Stop thinking about me. Stop EVERYTHING to do with me. I am happier than I have ever been, period. And I did nothing but try to make things easier on you when we ended. You took all of that and threw it in my face.
[08:38:pm] [Peow] I was going to write my own blog, from my point of view, but I decided that putting that type of time and effort into anything involving you, was ridiculous. So, move on, get over it, find someone else, and let me know how it feels here on the other side. really.

[08:38:pm] [SG] You didn't even care, don't give me that, read the fucking logs.
[08:38:pm] [Peow] I didn't care?
[08:38:pm] [Peow] Why don't you try not being selfish for a second.
[08:38:pm] [Peow] I get that you were in pain, I've been there.
[08:38:pm] [SG] You were all happy goofing off in your channel right after it happened
[08:38:pm] [Peow] But I sure as fuck did care.

[08:39:pm] [Peow] just because I dont display my emotions for the world to see and expect pity from everyone, doesn't eman I don't care.
[08:39:pm] [SG] if you cared you'd of tried to work shit out
[08:39:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry I'm not you and emi, crying and whining in front of everyone.
[08:39:pm] [Peow] np; Marcy Playground - Sex And Candy.
[08:39:pm] [Peow] No, because I was over you completely.

[08:39:pm] [SG] if you cared youd of ogtten off the PC and called me knowing I was in pain
[08:39:pm] [Peow] I'm not going to listen to you crying and feel more guilty than I already did for a decision I KNEW was the right one, when it wouldn't have changed anything.
[08:39:pm] [Peow] What would hearingmy voice have done for you in the long run, jeff?

[08:40:pm] * SG shrugs
[08:40:pm] [Peow] Exactly.
[08:40:pm] [Peow] I thought it out, and decided against it.
[08:40:pm] [Peow] I don't act on instinct.
[08:40:pm] [SG] Maybe you should.
[08:40:pm] [Peow] So I can look back later and have regrets? No thank you.
[08:41:pm] [Peow] Lived that way for too long.
[08:42:pm] [Peow] The point is, what you did was fucked up. If that was really your way of getting shit off your chest, you never would have bitched me out for having a journal where I talked about our relationship. It was private information that should have stayed between us and you took advantage of everything I've ever felt for you.
[08:42:pm] [Peow] so, I hope you're happy now, because I feel nothing for you. Good luck in life, I hope you find someone you connect with, and I hope you treat each other right. Take care.
[08:45:pm] [SG] Okay, later.

All I can say is...WOW. I mean, I can't even find the words to combat most of that, unreal and surreal. Amazing, simply amazing. I have never seen a more angry inner person. I almost feel sorry for her that she's stuck in some altered reality that isn't real nor is it life. Some peoples outlook on shit is really out there.