Saturday, February 20, 2010

Jeff Gets Engaged, Ends Badly - Part 2 of 2

[03:07:pm] [SG-away] and he doesnt even know me, he's basing shit on txt
[03:08:pm] [Peow] np; DMX - Ugly White Bitches.
[03:10:pm] [SG-away] and he probably doesnt like me because im your bf and he wants you bad
[03:10:pm] [Peow] tj doesnt like you cause of how you act
[03:10:pm] [Peow] which, i dont like either
[03:12:pm] [SG-away] because of how I act? look at how he acts
[03:12:pm] [SG-away] like he can talk
[03:12:pm] [Peow] I'm not arguing with you.
[03:12:pm] [SG-away] I know, not trying to argue, just saying
[03:12:pm] [Peow] okay
[03:12:pm] [Peow] moving on
[03:13:pm] [SG-away] mhm
[03:15:pm] [SG-away] okay so he can act like a complete moron but when I type some random shit it's
like I get shit for it
[03:15:pm] [Peow] I'm not talking about this anymore.
[03:16:pm] [SG-away] I just want to know why I bother you with my shit but he doesnt with his
[03:16:pm] [Peow] Because your shit is made up of lol turd cunt lol lol goats
[03:16:pm] [Peow] and it's stupid.
[03:16:pm] [SG-away] and his lolz o ur u flmsa all that shit he types isnt?
[03:16:pm] [Peow] Nope.
[03:17:pm] [Peow] It's called irc speak for a reason.

And it's fucking lame because it's only used by people who can't seem to learn how to spell i see, cool, hi, or bye.

[03:17:pm] [SG-away] and I havent said shit about cunts or goats in awhile
[03:17:pm] [SG-away] I may type cunt every now and then but not like i used to
[03:17:pm] * Peow shrug.
[03:17:pm] [Peow] I dont care enough to talk about this
[03:17:pm] [SG-away] Im just trying to see why youre taking his side over mine
[03:18:pm] [Peow] Im not taking sides
[03:18:pm] [Peow] I just dont like how you act
[03:18:pm] [Peow] and how he acts doesnt bother me[
[03:18:pm] [Peow] cause hes not my boyfriend
[03:18:pm] [Peow] so it's not embarrasing me.
[03:18:pm] [SG-away] ahh, okay I get ya <-- I didn't really
[03:19:pm] [SG-away] see that's all I wanted to know, I wont talk about goats and turds anymore
[03:19:pm] [Peow] Okay
[03:20:pm] [SG-away] :) I love you
[03:20:pm] [Peow] I love you too
[03:21:pm] [SG-away] issue sovled? we okay? you good? need a massage?
[03:21:pm] [Peow] Im fine
[03:21:pm] [Peow] lol
[03:21:pm] [SG-away] okay, I wasnt trying to argue hon just trying to understand
[03:21:pm] [Peow] i know
[03:22:pm] [SG-away] okay cool
[03:22:pm] [SG-away] I really need to go get ready for work now, I have 45 mins
[03:22:pm] [SG-away] I will come back and talk to you for a min before I leave unless you're busy
[03:22:pm] [Peow] okay hon
[03:52:pm] [SG] okay back
[03:52:pm] [Peow] wb
[03:52:pm] [SG] hi honey :)
[03:53:pm] [Peow] :}
[03:53:pm] [SG] are you mad for real?
[03:53:pm] [Peow] no
[03:53:pm] [Peow] rofl
[03:53:pm] [SG] oooh
[03:54:pm] [SG] Do you really not want me to goto work?
[03:54:pm] [Peow] I dont
[03:54:pm] [Peow] but
[03:54:pm] [Peow] you better
[03:54:pm] [Peow] lol
[03:55:pm] [SG] I am.
[03:55:pm] [SG] But awww that's sweet honey Im wowed
[03:56:pm] [Peow] ;]
[03:56:pm] [SG] DId you want to talk to me or spend time with me or something ?
[03:56:pm] [Peow] i DUnno.
[03:56:pm] [Peow] Stop being so clingy.
[03:57:pm] [SG] I'm not, I was just asking...
[03:57:pm] [SG] because you shocked me with that is all
[03:57:pm] [Peow] just be happy
[03:57:pm] [Peow] stop questioning it
[03:57:pm] [SG] I AM HAPPY!
[03:58:pm] [SG] I have the best finace in the world!
[03:58:pm] [Peow] ;]
[03:58:pm] [SG] thank you for being patient with me hon
[03:58:pm] [Peow] yep
[03:59:pm] [SG] :)
[03:59:pm] [SG] okay I gotta go eat and then leave, I love you baby...a lot.
[03:59:pm] [Peow] love you too
[03:59:pm] [SG] bye honey

Apparently I had to goto work and failed to meantion that eariler, anyway I went to work and came home to one of the most hurtful conversations of my life. Suicide or fellating a hot soldering iron would have been a better option than to endure this shit.

[08:52:pm] [SG-away] so what are you doing?
[08:52:pm] [Peow] stealing music
[08:52:pm] [Peow] lol
[08:52:pm] [SG-away] fun
[08:52:pm] [Peow] yah
[08:52:pm] [Peow] how was work?
[08:53:pm] [SG-away] eh kinda dead
[08:53:pm] [Peow] gay.
[08:53:pm] [SG-away] yeah
[08:53:pm] [Peow] whats up?
[08:54:pm] [SG-away] not shit, just got home
[08:54:pm] [Peow] you in a bad mood?
[08:54:pm] [SG-away] eh
[08:54:pm] [Peow] what's up?
[08:54:pm] [SG-away] not a pissed off one no
[08:54:pm] [Peow] ..what?
[08:54:pm] [Peow] lol
[08:55:pm] [SG-away] I dont know
[08:55:pm] [Peow] O_O;
[08:55:pm] [Peow] are you okay, dude?|
[08:56:pm] [SG-away] Im bored and kinda tired
[08:56:pm] [SG-away] yeah I guess Im okay
[08:56:pm] [Peow] :..
[08:56:pm] [Peow] Sound funny.
[08:57:pm] * SG-away shrugs
[08:57:pm] [Peow] Dude.
[08:57:pm] [Peow] Talk to me.
[08:57:pm] [Peow] np; PriZm - Super Mario Bros. Bowser is Pissed OC ReMix.
[08:57:pm] [SG-away] I just need to get outta the house, will talk when I get back
[08:58:pm] [Peow] Hey.
[08:58:pm] [Peow] Wait.
[08:58:pm] [Peow] What's going on?
[08:58:pm] [SG-away] ?
[08:58:pm] [Peow] Talk to me, please?
[08:58:pm] [SG-away] hon I dont want to argue or seem clingy or upset you
[08:58:pm] [Peow] Just talk to me.
[08:59:pm] [SG-away] I will, I just need to gather more thoughts to analyze
[08:59:pm] [Peow] Jeff.
[08:59:pm] [Peow] If something's bothering you, I'd really like to know what it is now.
[09:00:pm] [SG-away] you know what it is, it's IRC
[09:00:pm] [Peow] what about it?
[09:00:pm] [SG-away] ...
[09:00:pm] [SG-away] you're like different on here, you dont see shit my way or try to, you just assume shit and make a conclusion
[09:01:pm] [Peow] What are you talking about?
[09:01:pm] [SG-away] the whole fyre and danny shit
[09:01:pm] [Peow> What about Tj And Danny?
[09:01:pm] [SG-away] you side with them, on everything about me
[09:02:pm] [Peow] I agreed with them, that was why.
[09:02:pm] [SG-away] yeah exactly
[09:02:pm] [Peow] because -I- agreed with them.
[09:02:pm] [Peow] Not because THEY felt that way.
[09:02:pm] [SG-away] no because you let your e-friends influence you
[09:03:pm] [SG-away] I asked you to tone down the shit talk with fyre, you got mad
[09:03:pm] [Peow] I've known danny, and tj, actually, a fuck load longer than I've known you and YOU started out as a fucking Efriend too.
[09:03:pm] [SG-away] yes but am I an e-friend now? would they help you if you really needed it?
[09:03:pm] [SG-away] you let txt cover reality
[09:03:pm] [Peow] Depending on the situation, yes.
[09:04:pm] [SG-away] eh okay
[09:04:pm] [Peow] It's not gonna change.
[09:04:pm] [Peow] np; Senses Fail - Lost and Found (Acoustic).
[09:04:pm] [SG-away] yeah and that's why I didnt want to talk
[09:05:pm] [Peow] Maybe this shit, between us, isn't going to work, Jeff. Neither of us are happy.
[09:05:pm] [SG-away] I am happy, why arent you?
[09:05:pm] [Peow] I really dont know how to answer that
[09:05:pm] [SG-away] you seemed fine 10 mins ago
[09:05:pm] [Peow] I'm a good actress.
[09:05:pm] [SG-away] .....
[09:06:pm] [Peow] I didn't want to hurt you.
[09:06:pm] [SG-away] you seemed fine all day
[09:06:pm] [Peow] Read up
[09:06:pm] [SG-away] yeah
[09:06:pm] [SG-away] I'm treating you better and I did what you wanted? what else do you want?
[09:06:pm] [Peow] What kind of asshole hurts someone they love days before valentines day? I havent been happy for a long time.
[09:06:pm] [Peow] Out, I want out.
[09:06:pm] [SG-away] you need to call me
[09:07:pm] [SG-away] You hurt me or I hurt you?
[09:07:pm] [Peow] I can't. Phone's dead. Beth and her friend Sierra are on the house.
[09:07:pm] [Peow] We always hurt each other.
[09:07:pm] [SG-away] How do I hurt you?
[09:08:pm] [Peow] You just aren't what I want.
[09:08:pm] [Peow] It's not going to work.
[09:08:pm] [Peow] np; Tech N9ne - Poisonous (Feat. Liz Suwandi).
[09:09:pm] [Peow] You're not bad.
[09:09:pm] [Peow] Youre not a bad boyfriend, youre not bad at anything.
[09:09:pm] [Peow] Strangely enough you're perfection but I can't bring myself to be happy with you.
[09:09:pm] [Peow] I Don't know why. It's just not possible.
[09:09:pm] [SG-away] It's because we are apart
[09:09:pm] [Peow] Jeff.
[09:09:pm] [Peow] I can't forgive you for the things you did to me.
[09:09:pm] [Peow] and I can't move passed them.
[09:09:pm] [Peow] I just can't.
[09:10:pm] [SG-away] Why not? I thought we agreed that was the past and to wipe the slate clean and move on?
[09:10:pm] [Peow] It's not because we're apart.
[09:10:pm] [Peow] I tried.
[09:10:pm] [Peow] I really did.
[09:10:pm] [Peow] I'm tired of pretending I'm happy when I'm not.
[09:10:pm] [SG-away] So what happens when I come see you next month and you fall inlove with all over again?
[09:10:pm] [Peow] We're not going to be together next month.
[09:11:pm] [Peow] Why would you?
[09:11:pm] [SG-away] ....
[09:11:pm] [SG-away] Would you please just try? You said you were sure I ASKED YOU IF YOU WERE SURE!!!!
[09:11:pm] [SG-away] dammit I gotta go
[09:11:pm] [Peow] I'm so sorry.
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] WHY AMANDA WHY?
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] you LIED TO ME AGAIN
[09:12:pm] [Peow] I TRIED
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] TRY HARDER
[09:12:pm] [Peow] I TRIED -SO- HARD. <----- BUUUULLLLLLLLLSHHHHIT AMY, 100%
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] I WILL DO ANYTHING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] ANYTHING
[09:12:pm] [Peow] IM TIRED OF BEING UN HAPPY.
[09:12:pm] [Peow] You can't.
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] Then what was all that shit last month?
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] engagement and wedding and YO BEING HAPPY THEN
[09:12:pm] [Peow] I can't settle for someone I'm not in love with.
[09:12:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry.
[09:12:pm] [SG-away] ....
[09:13:pm] [SG-away] WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LIE TO ME?!?!?!?!
[09:13:pm] [Peow] I was wrong, again. I thought it was different this time.
[09:13:pm] [Peow] I thought I was better.
[09:13:pm] [SG-away] It is different
[09:13:pm] [Peow] It's not.
[09:13:pm] [Peow] It's worse
[09:13:pm] [SG-away] how so?
[09:13:pm] [Peow] I'M ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE.
[09:13:pm] [SG-away] why honey?
[09:13:pm] [Peow] Because you don't make me happy, Jeff.
[09:14:pm] [SG-away] but I did make you happy
[09:14:pm] [SG-away] what happened?
[09:14:pm] [SG-away] you know I bought you a ring a necklace and maybe aphone and I took work off to come see
[09:14:pm] [SG-away] you
[09:14:pm] [Peow] I got home and I realized I was lying to myself again ebcause the idea of a life without you sucks
[09:15:pm] [SG-away] Look, I will leave here, do whatever you want
[09:15:pm] [Peow] I LOVE you. I Do. I always will.
[09:15:pm] [Peow] BUt I'm never going to be able to force myself to be in love with you.
[09:15:pm] [Peow] and I swear to god I am so fucking sorry I ever hurt you.
[09:15:pm] [SG-away] I dont understand why
[09:15:pm] [Peow] I Dont either.
[09:15:pm] [Peow] I wish I did.
[09:16:pm] [Peow] but it's just not right.
[09:16:pm] [SG-away] can we please try one more time? I will leave IRC and never make you mad and we can work this out, I want to see you I took the work off
[09:16:pm] [Peow] I don't want to be with you, jeff. I'm sorry. 
[09:17:pm] [SG-away] What about kids and that Im the perfect person for you becuase I understand you and vica versa?
[09:17:pm] [SG-away] I dont understand why you're doing this all of a sudden
[09:17:pm] [Peow] It's been this way for weeks.
[09:17:pm] [Peow] I was trying to work through it.
[09:18:pm] [SG-away] You should have told me...
[09:18:pm] [Peow] I dont want to hurt you.
[09:18:pm] [Peow] ever.
[09:18:pm] [SG-away] did you know I was gonna start looking for places and work in MI?
[09:18:pm] [Peow] that's sweet of you but it doesnt change anything
[09:18:pm] [SG-away] Why cant you love me? you seemed fine when are together
[09:19:pm] [Peow] Because im broken?
[09:19:pm] [Peow] I dont fucking know
[09:19:pm] [SG-away] Let me help fix you
[09:19:pm] [Peow] You can't.
[09:20:pm] [SG-away] I wish you'd try and work thru this, I can move up there and we can see each other and man your family what about them?
[09:20:pm] [Peow] I dont want to work through it.
[09:21:pm] [SG-away] why amy? why?
[09:21:pm] [Peow] Because I'm not happy with you and relationships rent this fucking hard
[09:21:pm] [Peow] if you love someone
[09:21:pm] [Peow] you lov ethem
[09:21:pm] [Peow] period
[09:21:pm] [SG-away] So what can I do to make you happy? I wont bitch or be clingy and I will leave IRC
[09:22:pm] [Peow] that isn't going to help.
[09:23:pm] [SG-away] will you at least wait til after march? if you still feel the same way after seeming me again then so be it
[09:23:pm] [Peow] Idon't want to be with you.
[09:23:pm] [Peow] if you wanna see me, spend your money
[09:23:pm] [Peow] to come here
[09:23:pm] [Peow] that's on you.
[09:23:pm] [Peow] but I dont want to be with you.
[09:23:pm] [SG-away] what did I do to make you feel like this?|
[09:23:pm] [Peow] You didnt do anything.
[09:24:pm] [SG-away] do you like someone else? what? why did you tell me all this marriage and kids stuff a month ago and you seemed so happy while you where here
[09:24:pm] [SG-away] I dont get it
[09:24:pm] [Peow] I thought it's what I wanted.
[09:25:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry that I was wrong.
[09:25:pm] [SG-away] I asked you MAKE SURE ARE YOU POSTIVE
[09:25:pm] [SG-away] I asked you 3 times amy
[09:25:pm] [Peow] I KNOW
[09:25:pm] [Peow] AND AT THE TIME I WAS.
[09:25:pm] [Peow] np; The Black Maria - Waking Up With Wolves.
[09:25:pm] [SG-away] So what happened?
[09:25:pm] [Peow] I became not sure.
[09:25:pm] [SG-away] why? was it me or something I did?
[09:26:pm] [Peow] No.
[09:26:pm] [Peow] I'm just stupid 
[09:26:pm] [SG-away] No you're not. 
[09:27:pm] [Peow] Im sorry.
[09:27:pm] [Peow] I really am.
[09:28:pm] [SG-away] I just dont get it, you like someone else or something I mean what?
[09:29:pm] [Peow] np; Jordin Sparks - Freeze.
[09:29:pm] [Peow] I just don't feel how I thought I did about you.
[09:29:pm] [Peow] and I'm not happy.
[09:30:pm] [SG-away] Well I think seeing me again will change that
[09:30:pm] [Peow] I don't.
[09:30:pm] [SG-away] why not?
[09:31:pm] [SG-away] Amy look at us, we understand each other inside and out, we click on levels I dont click with anyone, we compromise, I just dont get it
[09:31:pm] [SG-away] and you're being cold
[09:31:pm] [Peow] because I dont want this.
[09:32:pm] [SG-away] Why not amy? what's so bad about it? you just said I'm a good boyfriend I dont get this at all
[09:32:pm] [Peow] Because IM NOT HAPPY WITH YOU. 
[09:32:pm] [Peow] It doesnt matter if youre a great boyfriend
[09:32:pm] [SG-away] why are you not happy with me?
[09:32:pm] [SG-away] there has to be a reason and a solution, I will do everythign different and whatever you want
[09:33:pm] [Peow] np; Avril Lavigne - - Innocence.
[09:33:pm] [Peow] I just want you to be my friend.
[09:33:pm] [SG-away] when we 1st started this convo you were fine and concerned about my mood, then I meantion your friends and this happens, I shouldnt have said shit
[09:34:pm] [Peow] I was planning to do it anyway
[09:34:pm] [SG-away] do you like someone else?
[09:35:pm] [Peow] You always ask me questions you don't want the answer to.
[09:35:pm] [SG-away] ....
[09:35:pm] [SG-away] so that's the reason
[09:35:pm] [Peow] Part of it.
[09:35:pm] [SG-away] whats he got that I dont?
[09:35:pm] [Peow] It's not about what he has, Jeff. I wasn't happy before him.
[09:36:pm] [SG-away] Well I will come see you next month, because I want to see you one last time...
[09:36:pm] [Peow] I really, really, didn't want to hurt you.
[09:36:pm] [Peow] I do love you.
[09:36:pm] [SG-away] why are you not happy though? 
[09:36:pm] [Peow] Because I'm not in love with you.
[09:37:pm] [SG-away] but you were a month ago
[09:37:pm] [Peow] I was wrong.
[09:37:pm] [Peow] np; (HED) P.E. - Everything All The Time.
[09:37:pm] [SG-away] then you should have told me no then when I asked you are you sure 3 times
[09:37:pm] [Peow] I thought differently.
[09:37:pm] [SG-away] is your house phone handy? I really need to talk to you
[09:38:pm] [Peow] No.
[09:38:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry.
[09:38:pm] [SG-away] yeah me too
[09:38:pm] [SG-away] I should have stayed off IRC
[09:39:pm] [Peow] heh.
[09:39:pm] [SG-away] what?
[09:40:pm] [Peow] I dont like knowing I hurt you over and over. im sorry if that sounds selfish.
[09:41:pm] [SG-away] I just dont understand any of this
[09:41:pm] [Peow] I wish I did.
[09:41:pm] [SG-away] so you want to be with fyre?
[09:41:pm] [SG-away] is that it?
[09:42:pm] [Peow] part of it.
[09:42:pm] [SG-away] why?
[09:42:pm] [Peow] Because I care for him.
[09:42:pm] [SG-away] and you dont care for me?
[09:42:pm] [Peow] I do. But I'm not happy with you.
[09:43:pm] [SG-away] I will come see you next month
[09:44:pm] [SG-away] I think that will change
[09:44:pm] [Peow] And if he and I are together
[09:44:pm] [Peow] ?
[09:46:pm] [SG-away] ...
[09:46:pm] [SG-away] this soon?

THERE, THAT PART RIGHT FUCKING THERE! I should have known she had alternate plans. Wow, I'm gullible.

[09:47:pm] [Peow] I don't know what's going to happen
[09:48:pm] [SG-away] [09:21:pm] .. Because I'm not happy with you and relationships
[09:48:pm] [Peow] Okay, I'm not happy with you.
[09:49:pm] [SG-away] what can be done so you are happy with me? I mean do you realize how much I love you and what all Ive done for you? you said Im perfection, but I dont get this
[09:50:pm] [Peow] Nothing because 2 years later Im still not happy with you.
[09:51:pm] [SG-away] why?
[09:51:pm] [Peow] I dont know.
[09:53:pm] [SG-away] Will you please call me
[09:54:pm] [Peow] 5 minutes.
[09:54:pm] [Peow] Brb getting the house phone.
[09:54:pm] [SG-away] okay thank you
[10:08:pm] [SG-away] so you saying that me getting you a phone so we can talk more to try and save this was a lie too?
[10:08:pm] [Peow] No.
[10:08:pm] [Peow] I was wrong.
[10:08:pm] [SG-away] do you still want the phone?
[10:08:pm] [Peow] Good thing you didnt buy it
[10:08:pm] [Peow] ..
[10:08:pm] [SG-away] oh okay
[10:08:pm] [Peow] you bought it?
[10:08:pm] [SG-away> I was gonna
[10:09:pm] [Peow] If you can afford to let me pay you back, yes, I need it for jobs.
[10:09:pm] [Peow] but it wont change anything.
[10:10:pm] [SG-away] I know you, you dont want me and just my luck I lose again, I always lose when it comes to women..
[10:10:pm] [Peow] Just means Im not right for you.
[10:11:pm] [SG-away] Yes you are perfect for me honey, you're pretty and caring and patient and we get along so well in person and we both want kids and you make me so happy
[10:12:pm] [Peow] im not right for you because im not happy with you.
[10:12:pm] [SG-away] why are you mad?
[10:13:pm] [Peow] i'm not.
[10:13:pm] [SG-away] I mean you sounded mad
[10:13:pm] [Peow] I'm frustrated.
[10:13:pm] [SG-away] why?
[10:14:pm] [Peow] because you keep asking em the same shit
[10:14:pm] [Peow] and the answers dont change
[10:16:pm] [SG-away] then I will leave
[10:16:pm] [Peow] im sorry
[10:16:pm] [SG-away] me too..
[10:18:pm] [SG-away] im sorry I couldnt make you happy..
[10:19:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry I hurt you again.
[10:20:pm] [SG-away] You said you wouldnt and if you did youd walk away, so are you?
[10:21:pm] [Peow] yes.
[10:22:pm] [SG-away] oh...
[10:22:pm] [SG-away] okay well...goodbye then...I love you so much always and forever
[10:23:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry.
[10:25:pm] [SG-away] Have a good life okay? I hope shit works out for you
[10:26:pm] [Peow] You
[10:26:pm] [Peow] 're not going to stay friends?
[10:26:pm] [SG-away] you said you were walking away..
[10:26:pm] [Peow] ..
[10:28:pm] [SG-away] what?
[10:28:pm] [SG-away] I dont know how to be your friend, I want to but I dont know how I love you too fucking much
[10:28:pm] [Peow] Whatever you want to do.
[10:29:pm] [SG-away] I want to make you happy and for us to work this out and come see you next month but that's wishful thinking
[10:29:pm] [Peow] I'm sorry.
[10:31:pm] [SG-away] I am too, I wish I could go back and change it
[10:31:pm] [Peow] I wish I could fix it for you.
[10:32:pm] [SG-away] fix what?
[10:32:pm] [Peow] make it easier.
[10:33:pm] [SG-away] you know tonya tonight came up to me and said "you went a lost your mind" I said "hu?" she said "youre getting married" I said "oh yeah its great"
[10:34:pm] [Peow] Heh.
[10:34:pm] [SG-away] guess I can tell everyone the wedding is canceled
[10:35:pm] [Peow] heh ;..
[10:42:pm] [SG-away] I love you
[10:43:pm] [SG-away] sorry for all this.. <-- WHAT IN SAMS HELLS NAME WAS I THINKING APPOLOGIZING WHEN IT WAS HER IN THE WRONG?
[10:43:pm] [SG-away] i will leave you alone
[10:43:pm] [Peow] I love you, and Im sorry I hurt you.
[10:43:pm] [SG-away] sorry I hurt you and couldnt make you happy..
[10:44:pm] [Peow] you didnt hurt me.
[10:44:pm] [SG-away] oh
[10:44:pm] [Peow] not lately
[10:44:pm] [Peow] anyway
[10:44:pm] [SG-away] well made you mad then
[11:53:pm] [Peow] sorry
[11:53:pm] [Peow] i didnt see that you messaged
[11:53:pm] [Peow] wtf
[11:53:pm] [Peow] it didnt b link.
Session Time: Sun Feb 14 00:00:00 2010
[12:16:am] [SG-away] what?
[12:16:am] [SG-away] oh
[12:16:am] [SG-away] heh
[12:16:am] [Peow> sorry, im heading to bed
[12:17:am] [SG-away] eh okay
Session Time: Mon Feb 15 00:00:00 2010
Session Close: Mon Feb 15 01:37:06 2010

Wow is all I can say to that, I hope you got something better. Can you believe she didn't even have the guts to call me up and break up with me? She had to do it online because, well she lives online. Very very sad. And she did it the day before valentines day when I had already gotten her a gift. Yes, I will admit I am a bit of a SOB and a push over, blow me.

After that night, I didn't talk to her and I still haven't really. She sent me a text message the day after she shit on me saying "hey how are you?" I replied with .... but I wanted to say "Take a sharp knife and stab it into your heart about 12 times". Some days later, I think it was 3 or 4 after the break up, she saw me on MSN messenger and proceeded to message me.

[Conversation started on 02/16/10 21:29:41]

[02/16/10 21:29:41 ] RAHR : Hey, if you want me to like never msg you again that's cool just wanted to make sure, you know. and say hi.

[02/16/10 21:50:24 ] J : heh

[You have closed the window on 16 Feb 2010 21:50:34]

After I closed the window, I renamed her to something that fits her better than RAHR.

[Conversation started on 02/16/10 21:51:08]

[02/16/10 21:51:08 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : I know you hate me, it's cool. I just wanted to say Hi,
I gues.
[02/16/10 21:51:08 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : s.
[02/16/10 21:51:48 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : and I think Im just gonna delete you from my space and
stuff, probably better for you.
[02/16/10 21:51:50 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : so yeah.
[02/16/10 21:52:29 ] J : I dont care
[02/16/10 21:52:33 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : okay.
[02/16/10 21:53:35 ] J : i dont hate you
[02/16/10 21:53:39 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : I wish you did.
[02/16/10 21:53:52 ] J : it's crossed my mind
[02/16/10 21:54:06 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : I really didn't want anything like this to happen, I
hope you know that.
[02/16/10 21:54:51 ] J : heh
[02/16/10 21:54:57 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : anyway
[02/16/10 21:55:05 ] Heartless Selfish Bitch : i'll be around if you feel the need to talk to me.
[02/17/10 18:14:56 ] J : yeah

This was the last time I had any contact with her at all, until this happened today 2/20/2010.

Heartless Bitch says:
You can return to desu. We delinked. Just so you know
SG Stoney Jeff says:
yeah
Heartless Bitch says:
Okay, bye.

THANK YOU JESUS/SATAN/GOD/BUDDAH/MOHAMMED WHATEVER YOU ARE! Of course only I understand what she said there, but trust me it's a good thing. 

However, yesterday I get online and see "Mr. Z" and Amy having a go at each other via the /kill command, so I had to inquire.

[06:31:pm] [SG-away] lol X, nice kill msg
[06:31:pm] [Z] lol
[06:31:pm] [Z] she made soppy topic msgs
[06:31:pm] [Z] so
[06:31:pm] [Z] i changed the topic to
[06:31:pm] [Z] " i give it three months "
[06:31:pm] [Z] shenolikey
[06:31:pm] * Z lol'd
[06:31:pm] [SG-away] 3 months?
[06:31:pm] [Z] i was being generous.
[06:32:pm] [SG-away] LOL
[06:34:pm] [SG-away] whats a soppy topic?
[06:34:pm] [SG-away] or rather whats soppy mean lol
[06:35:pm] [Z] soppy == sappy/loveydovey
[06:35:pm] [SG-away] wait...
[06:35:pm] [SG-away] are her and dickbrain together?
[06:35:pm] [Z] yeah
[06:36:pm] [SG-away] BAWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!
[06:36:pm] [Z] i'm not sure which one to feel sorry for, tbh
[06:36:pm] [SG-away] Oh he's in for a treat
[06:36:pm] [Z] inorite?
[06:36:pm] [SG-away] She will do the EXACT same shit to him as she did me
[06:36:pm] [SG-away] she just got out of a relationship, you cant just jump into another
[06:36:pm] [Z] she got all pissy over me saying that and was all " so lets talk about that kasey chick, you know the sick girl you fucked over for em "
[06:36:pm] [SG-away] that's aching for descruction
[06:37:pm] [SG-away] HAHAHHA nice one
[06:37:pm] * Z found it amusing that she a) tried to make a comeback about stuff that she knows for a fact was all lies from other people being bitches
[06:37:pm] [Z] and
[06:37:pm] [Z] b) didn't make one attempt to say i was wrong
[06:37:pm] [SG-away] So that's why she dumped me, to get with him wow
[06:37:pm] [Z] yeah
[06:37:pm] [SG-away] To leave someone that has a dick for someone that has no dick is prett sad
[06:39:pm] [Z] oyeah
[06:39:pm] [Z] and
[06:39:pm] [Z] best bit : she was all " lol @ you and your gf tbh "
[06:39:pm] * Z was quite amused
[06:40:pm] [SG-away] yeah the LOL is on her really
[06:40:pm] [SG-away] I give it 3 months too or less.
[06:40:pm] [Z] lol, yea
[06:40:pm] [Z] well my theory was prettymuch that i give it max a month after they actually meet.
[06:41:pm] [SG-away] yeah like they will actually meet, he would have to pay for it all
[06:41:pm] [Z] she's incapable of handling anything once it becomes... 'real' for want of a better way to put it.
[06:41:pm] [SG-away] mhm

There you have it, the story of how I got engaged and then dumped almost a month later, unreal. It just goes to show that when something is too good to be true, 9 times out of 10 it is.